you like to ask questions, as do i, but i’ll come out and say it: there are not many great opportunities. instead, from my insides i wonder is it enough? — a pulsing from throat to stomach. for example, the rations i’ve assembled at a price-gouging grocery store on the walk to the subway from my piano lesson. the detailed accounting of my most banal, vain and weepy concerns in a large bound notebook. the patience i practice when rather than steering events towards my own gratifying or disappointing ends, i wait to see what you will do. i challenge myself to believe that this is what i was meant to learn from “everything”: a noble, in fact a staggering kind of openness in the face of what previously would have been a level of uncertainty that could induce in me, finally, perhaps, psychosis.
practice
practice
practice
you like to ask questions, as do i, but i’ll come out and say it: there are not many great opportunities. instead, from my insides i wonder is it enough? — a pulsing from throat to stomach. for example, the rations i’ve assembled at a price-gouging grocery store on the walk to the subway from my piano lesson. the detailed accounting of my most banal, vain and weepy concerns in a large bound notebook. the patience i practice when rather than steering events towards my own gratifying or disappointing ends, i wait to see what you will do. i challenge myself to believe that this is what i was meant to learn from “everything”: a noble, in fact a staggering kind of openness in the face of what previously would have been a level of uncertainty that could induce in me, finally, perhaps, psychosis.